I had a dream, I dont remember much about it. I woke up at 5AM to my alarm feeling SO relieved because I felt very “attacked” in my dream.
What was my dream? I couldnt remember. I literally forgot everything the second I woke up, but right now as I type this it’s all coming back … mostly.
I remember just before waking up, I was inside of some large room sitting in chair that were lined against the wall. From the corner of my eye I saw my best friend from high school sitting in the chairs against the wall on the other side. I was sitting next to some guy, dont remember who, but at some point my old best friend came up to our chairs and he offered something to the guy to my left. He had like 2 things remaining of whatever he was handing out, and he walked past me without looking, and he gave the other thing to the person on the other side of me. This is where things get muddy, idk if I said something or what, but it came to the point where the guy on my right and my old best friend were explaining to me that I was a liar and an asshole and that’s why hes ignoring me. And I was truly confused but also accepted it? Which makes me wonder what that means?
I know that when he and I were friends in high school we were both lying about many things, but that’s just because we were young and insecure and afraid. I’m hoping that’s why I felt so accepting of it in my dream, because I have, for the last 6 years done my damn hardest to not lie. I dont like building relationships on lies, and most of my childhood relationships were built off lies, which is horrible. Lies on my behalf, not theirs. That’s why nowadays I truly am honest about everything. Sometimes it came off as mean, and I had to work on that and I’m no longer one of those “I’m not mean, I’m just honest” people.
I’m not a liar because I dont want to hurt myself or others, and I’m also not mean because I dont want to hurt myself or others. Pretty simple.
BenMioVur 